Never mind.

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Today, I thought we’d take our girl out for hot chocolate. We got dressed and put our shoes on. We locked up the house and went out to the car. She started getting defiant and cranky, so I got defiant and cranky.

We played through this series of events twice today.

But I still wanted hot chocolate, so papa went and got it to-go, and bebe got hers for “napping well.”

I’m really good at this.

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Never mind.

Fail like a mother.

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I have a journal that was gifted to me when I was pregnant. The concept is that you document everyday motherhood — one happy thought, sentence, sentiment, memory every single day.

It’s a wonderful journal, but when I think about it, I feel like a failure. I miss documenting a lot of days — lately, most days. My go-to entry on days that I forget to journal is, “Oops!” I used that a lot the first year she was born. I just couldn’t keep up. When I got to year two of her life, my stomach sank every time I came across an “Oops!” entry from the year prior.

“What happened that day last year?” I’d think. Did she hit a new milestone? Was she happy that day or fussy? How many teeth did she have?

I still come across those entries. The big gut punches are the days I come across where I’ve missed both years to-date. 2015: Oops! 2016: Oops! I know I’m on track to three-peat some days. Next year, I’ll look back and come across days that I have never journaled. 2017: Oops!

Not journaling makes me feel anxious, regretful, and inadequate, but I also recognize that not journaling probably means I am tired — from reading an extra book at bedtime, from working all day so I feel good, from prepping her lunches for school, from a nightcap that made me fall asleep on the couch (again).

I guess what I’m saying is that I’m not too shabby.

Fail like a mother.

The way it is.

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Ever since bebe was born, my husband and I have had a nightly ritual of cuddling on the couch to look through our phones together and share all of the photos and videos we captured that day.

As she approached one year old, the daily pictures become weekly and eventually monthly progress pictures.

When she turned two, we just snapped what we could when we could, and that’s left me craving something.

I started this blog because I didn’t want to miss anything. And maybe the lack of photos is an indication that I’m succeeding — that I’m participating in my life — but I don’t want to regret anything.

This is a day in the life — an actual day in the life, complete with crusty noses, messy kitchen counters, and canine eye boogers. This is my stopping to smell the roses.

The way it is.

Bebe, bare feet, buffalo plaid.

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You’ve seen this romper before. But this face — man, it’s changed.

I went to her closet to pick out her outfit today and saw this romper hanging there. Just for fun, I thought I’d see if it still fits. And it does(ish).

This matters to me because bebe has changed so much since she last wore it. I keep a journal, and as I documented some recent milestones last night, I felt overcome by the fact that she’s not an infant anymore.

That she fits into this wee romper — my little one who’s always been in the 99th percentile for just about everything — means something to me, and it’s that she’s still my baby girl.

Bebe, bare feet, buffalo plaid.

Toddlerdom.

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It’s a funny and bittersweet thing – toddlerdom.

For example:

  • When did we go from describing the place she sleeps as a “nursery” to her “room?”
  • When did she start having a preference on which shoes she’d like to wear?
  • When did she learn that she can decide who to kiss?

I’m – at the same time – so wistful about and grateful for how fast she grows. She confounds me daily, this ridiculous creature who made me a mom.

Toddlerdom.

Sweater weather.

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It’s finally starting to feel like fall around here, which makes me insanely excited.

It’s the season for boots, scarves, and sweaters, and it occurs to me that I now have a BABY. This means it’s also the season for baby boots, baby scarves, and baby sweaters.

Oh, and I just ordered a baby purse. I’m out of control.

Sweater weather.